I'm so happy for Blue. I don't think that anyone is as proud and excited for him as I am. I love seeing him come home from work with a smile on his face. I love that he looks forward to the next day. I love hearing all about what they're learning and doing.
With his life becoming so exciting, I've started to feel like my life, well....er....isn't.
I've been a stay-at-home mom for almost 6 years now. I get together with friends, I'm involved in our church community, I do the odd thing here and there with the kids but none of those things feel very exciting. They are all normal to me. I like them but....hm....I'm just not sure how to put it.
Traveling is exciting to me. Going to Haiti last year was over-the-moon exciting. Boxing is exciting to me. I used to box (just for a little while...just enough to get the boxing-bug) at a local club and I enjoyed it so much. It was different and unexpected. Blue and I went on a hiking trip last year. We got a bit rained-out but it was a huge challenge, both mentally and physically. All of the things that I can think of that I'd like to do cost money or take time, both of which we seem to be a bit short on these days. Boxing. A puppy. Going back to school. Hiking. Rowing/Kayaking. Camping. Traveling. Boxing. A puppy. Did I mention boxing?
I feel as though I'm living vicariously through Blue, trying to live a bit of his excitement.
Does anyone else ever feel like this?